I cannot breathe life

What is it to rejoice with the truth? God tell us, “I the Lord search the heart and test the mind, to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his deeds.”¹

Yet how hard do I work sometimes to be his tester; his dispenser of justice in the name of "love"? Yet become a little attorney when his light comes to shine upon me.

Does loving like Him mean to do all that He does? It cannot. I cannot.

Love never ends.²

I am brought to my knees under the crushing weight of a truth that I cannot avoid. That I am not able to love as my God loves.

I cannot breathe life… though I can breathe His Words of life.

I cannot forgive unto salvation. “Who can forgive sins but God alone?”³ If I take that seat I am not being kind. I am standing in a place that I do not belong. I did not grant this salvation. I received it. But I can extend forgiveness from the merciful depths of that salvation, as I have been forgiven.⁴

I cannot breathe life.

But I can live, love and relate out of the life that has been breathed into me.